While waiting to be matched with a child from China, about once a month an email is sent out stating that the CCWA was releasing children’s files to the shared list. The emails are usually sent out a week prior to the list being released. This means once the list is released there is a greater chance that we will be matched. The week prior we received another one of those emails from our agency stating the list would be released on Tuesday October 20, 2015. If a match is made our agency or social worker calls us. No call means no match 😦
Kyle and I have received several of these emails before but we never got our hopes up because we haven’t been waiting that long.
As I drove home that Tuesday, I remembered the email and thought, “I guess today wasn’t the day.” I even text Kyle when I got home:
Based on my Star Wars comment, I didn’t give it a second thought, and moved on with my night. I was fighting a bad sinus infection which zapped all of my energy, so I went to bed early and took some NyQuil. Just as I was falling asleep the phone rang.
It was our Social Worker. She apologized for calling so late but she had some news that couldn’t wait. We received our match! A twenty month old girl that our Social Worker said was adorable!!! Our Social Worker said she would be emailing us the file of the little girl as soon as she hung up and that she couldn’t wait to hear what we thought. I think she was as excited as we were.
Meanwhile, in my NyQuil haze, I realized Kyle was still working out at the gym. I immediately called him with the news and proceeded to pace for twenty minutes while I waited for him to drive home. I was so anxious! Those twenty minutes felt like an eternity.
When we received THE CALL I wasn’t at home. It was nine o’clock at night and I wasn’t expecting our agency to be contacting us anymore that day. To be honest I assumed we would be waiting another month or two. But then my phone rang and when I answered Kristin’s voice sounded both anxious and excited. She immediately said, “Come home, we got the call.” I couldn’t believe it, heck I wasn’t even sure if it was real. I thought I might have been dreaming. I quickly got in my car and drove home as fast as I could. I had a knot in my stomach and a lump in my throat.
Kristin and I had promised each other early on that if we received the call we would wait to view the file together. Now the moment was here and I couldn’t wait for Kristin to open the email so we could see our baby girl for the first time. I was very excited and nervous. I was going to be a father, I was going to have a daughter to take care of, protect, and to watch grow into a young woman. Kristin opened the email and I saw her pictures and immediately knew, that’s her, that is my daughter, our daughter! My eyes watered up and my heart grew.
We were going to be parents of this beautiful little girl!
I didn’t sleep much that night. I had so much on my mind. I told Kristin she’s already keeping me up at night 🙂
I can’t stop thinking about her. I wonder what she’ll be like. Will she be outgoing or shy? Will she like dolls? Will she like sports? Or will she like music?
Either way, I know that we will love her!
We already do!